Mar 25, 2009

my poker face

the growling of the bus engine and the soft music eminting from the only one earphone on my right ear grew steadily clearer. my senses started to return to its normal state as i drew out of dreamland. the bus was still dark and quiet,but sunlight was already creeping through the gaps of the curtains. the great ball of fire that brings life to mankind rose slowly from the horizen. as all creation of God reponded to the stimulus of the sunlight and awaken from sweet slumber,my sleepy schoolmates did the same too.
serounded by so many friends,but instead of feeling joyful a sense of lingering sadness was in me throughout the trip. the reason for this i could not find. i tried to rid myself from it,but failure was the end result. i felt i was a burden that my fellow friends had to carry,i put on a fake smile to lighten this burden. did they notice the difference?
i put on my poker face just like the so many people i know. decive others so that my true feelings cant be seen.

Mar 16, 2009



Mar 7, 2009

b'day 2009

i turned 17 the second the clock struck 12am on thursday. my handphone starts beeping which wakes me up from sweet slumber. what a wonderful beginning to my b'day with b'day wishes from my friendies.

right before the break of dawn,i awaken again but this time the culprit was my alarm. reluctant to get out of bed,i pressed on the snooze button as usual(about 4 times). finally,after lazing on my bed for 20 minutes,i got up and made my way to the bathroom. the sky was still pitch black and silent like in the dead of night. i did my usual morning routine and went downstairs to have my breakfast before setting off to school. as i passed through the living room,i noticed that my mother was already siting on the sofa with her eyes closed,waiting for me. i entered the kitchen,and there they were,two half boiled eggs ready to be eaten.

the journey to 5C class seemed shortened that morning,maybe it was because i was subconsciously walking faster than usual for my mind was busy imaging what they had planed for my b'day. i told myself that i was not going to get my hopes up this year and expect to much from them. but the thing is they let slip that they already planed something for me,i just don't know what is it yet. all was normal as i reached the classroom,accept for the white umbrella on my desk. i later learned that it was my b'day present.

we had to leave the school early and head to SMKTP to play our last match in the MSSD basketball tournament. on the way there,the van stoped in front of A1 mini market and our captain(bunny jie) got down and bought muffins and a lollipop. she stuck the lollipop on one of the muffins and asked the whole van to sing a birthday song to me(aiyo..made me so pai seh). i was caught off guard and did'nt know how to react,so i just smiled.

we knew that at the end of that match the yellow score sheet would belong to us which means we won't be able to make it to the semifinals,that was why we knew that was dead end for the 2009 SMKTA team.

the blazing sun made sweat steam down our faces as we were waiting for the tug-of-war teams to gather their teamates. i was one of the Dang Anum team members. i was standing around minding my own bussnis when with no sign at all,Pn Yong and a group of my friends(lead by bunny jie) started singing a birthday song to me(aiyo..pai seh second time already). they laughed their heads off at my shocked face.

a little birdy told me that they planed a suprise party for me that night,so that ruined the suprise. but no harm done,it did'nt make it less special for i knew that u all had put alot of effort in it. i arrived home that night with cream all over my face,the smelled like firecrackers and a stomach full of barbequed chicken wings. i was exhausted,but happier than ever.